nothing's been blog-worthy these few days. been trying to study, but i juz cant seem to get anything into my head. my brain juz isn't used to studying during hols. n with de things dat have been happening to me, it isn't de best time to ask me to concentrate on studies. great, juz great. de exams r juz nxt wk. lovely isn't it.

i juz keep thinking. of him. of her. of him n her. of everything. how i wish things are different. i went arnd my life de past few days feeling empty. feeling like everything i do is a waste of time. feeling like wateva i do is useless. fuck. i feel so low, like i've fallen into a deep pit n i cant get out. no matter how hard i try i juz keep falling back down further n further.

sighz. life juz sux at de moment. n founders is coming up. for those of u who dunno wat founders is it's when all de grads go back to mgs to collect their certs. i'll see her at founders. wonder wat i'll do. cry??cant do dat. walk away without saying anything??mebbe. but then she wun noe how i feel. heck. i'll juz see how it goes on dat day.

well, dat's all for today. as i said, there's nothing blog-worthy here.

~8:22 pm