yesterday was great. tho it was damn hot. n i mean HOT. can practically melt in de sun. somemore had de smu carnival. we did great there. considered this was our first time we played without de seniors. n we only had proper coaching de day before. not dat de seniors neva gave us proper trg but we learned some stuff from de coach dat we cld use yesterday n de stuff we learned from de seniors can be used nxt time, once we're confident enuf. we did well tho. really improving as a team. but we still have a lot of things to work on. esp communication n trusting each other on de field...
n i realised something. we seriously CANNOT get everyone to go for a meal together, as a team. someone always has to go off somewhere, or has something on n cannot make it. we really hafta come together to bond, so dat on de field we can have de 'chemistry' to play well...
didn't wanna talk to him when i came online last nite. wasn't in de mood to talk to him. but he started talking to me first so wat was i supposed to do. i had no choice, i cant juz ask him to go away. cuz he's not gonna go away. he's gonna be there constantly. for a long long time to come...
at least i didn't breakdown n cry when he was talking to me. but i felt like i shldnt talk to him. cuz all i wanna do is get away from him. get away from wat i felt for him. get away from everything bout him...
he acted as if there was nothing wrong. dat i had no feelings. he muz be aware dat his gf told me dat they were together. duh it's not like his gf n me r total strangers. we're frens u noe. this made me angry. how can u act like nothing's wrong. how can u not noe how much i'm hurting. it's not like u dunno dat i like u. ur fren told u n ur fren's gf told u. n she noes me better than most ppl i'm close to...
fuck. i neva expected a simple crush to become so complicated. so hurting. so...
Gabrielle - Out of Reach
Knew the signs
Wasn't right
I was stupid for a while
Swept away by you
And now I feel like a fool
So confused,
My heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach,
Couldn't see
We were never meant to be
Catch myself
From despair
I could drown
If I stay here
Keeping busy everyday
I know I will be OK
But I was
So confused,
My heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach,
Couldn't see
We were never
Meant to be
So much hurt,
So much pain
Takes a while
To regain
What is lost inside
And I hope that in time,
You'll be out of my mind
And I'll be over you
But now I'm
So confused,
My heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach,
So far
I never had your heart
Out of reach,
Couldn't see
We were never
Meant to be
Out of reach,
So far
You never gave your heart
In my reach, I can see
There's a life out there
For me
