haven blogged in a while cuz i didn't feel like blogging. haha. wateva. got back mid-year results during these few days. first was maths. very lucky dat i passed. haha. 33/60. so lucky. was expecting to fail. realised dat i'm very careless n make a lot of stoopid mistakes. it's been like dat since pri sch, but i can't seen to be more careful. haha. mebbe i'll juz hafta practice more. sian. do more maths again. math lectures r beginning to get boring again. nearly fell asleep. haha. david chia's damn bloody boring lah. if there wasn't anything to copy i'd have prolly fallen asleep alr. haha. doing differentiation now. dun really like differentiation. haha. wateva. at least i noe wat's going on. kind of noe. haha. nxt paper i got back was econs mcq. failed lah. fuck. 13/30. haha. expected since i totally didn't study for this paper. wateva. was hoping to pass tho, so dat i cld pull up my econs essay marks. seems like dat wun happen now. heard today dat econs essay was done very badly. so most prob i'll fail. E or F. haha. chem lesson today. jasima said we did very badly. very few ppl passed in our class. i think she's given up on us alr. haha. chem is difficult. n wif a teacher like her, i can't learn anything. so i sure fail loh. chinese i think i pass. C6 ah. dunno. haha. gp was ok lah. got 29 for essay, 22 for compre. dunno wat happen to my compre. even vivian chua also ask me wat happen to my compre. haha. wtf. vivian chua's crazy k. ask us to do keyword analysis for ALL de other essay qns dat we didn't do. dat's like 11 qns loh. wtf. how to complete in one nite. n it has to be done properly if not she'll juz blow her top. can't blame her tho, cuz she's pregnant so will have mood swings. but i dun like teachers who can be so damn bloody nice n candy sweet to u one min n de nxt they're shouting at u for some lame reason. hate them. anyway, prolly get back de rest of de papers nxt week. basically my chem n econs fail alr.
2 subs fail. great. pretty high chance of getting retained. dun wan dat to happen. i wanna complete my A level in 2 years n get good results so dat even if i go overseas i still have a results to be proud of. haha. fuck. mebbe i shld start mugging now. haha.
had combined trng again on wed. kind of ok. but felt out of shape cuz it's been almost a month of no exercise. haha. kinda slack tho. cuz it was at netball court (NBC-according to de coach. haha. lame lah. made all of us think it was some place outside sch. yoke called her fren to ask n her fren dunno. eugene tot it was some naval base.) anyway, yupz it was at NBC so there wasn't so much space to run arnd. did some strategy. we had forgotten wat de coach had told us during de hols. haha. sat down for a team talk to setle some issues. someone felt like she was being ignored by a lot of ppl on de team. we told her dat's cuz she seldom came for trngs n we didn't noe how to communicate wif her. so now she's gonna come down for trngs since she doesn't have naymore tuition on trng days.
everything went well. didn't breakdown n cry. dat is until after trng when me yoke n aiwei wanted to go bathe when de subject of him cropped up n juz cldn't hold back anymore. aiwei kinda guessed dat they were alr together. de rest of his click prolly dunno (according to aiwei). i think i gave aiwei a shock. sorry girl. didn't mean to start crying in front of u. yoke understood wat i was going thru. she's gone thru things more hurting than wat is happening to me now. thanks girl. can't really talk to anyone. aiwei n yoke r in a different class. can't really talk to those i'm close to in class cuz they'll start talking bout their bf or some guy at their workplace. n it hurts to hear dat their relationships r going so well. i'm happy for them. but it hurts.
sigh. i dunno wat to do. i dunno how i'm gonna forget cuz i still can't. sigh...
