it's weird how one thing can change ur mood for de whole day. heard a song on de radio dat made me think of him again. thankfully i didn't cry in de car or my parents wld start questioning me. but dat song spoiled my mood. i didn't feel like doing anything for de rest of de day. juz felt like stoning n doing nothing. feel dat my life's meaningless now. i've had it for a long time. juz dun feel like i've got anything left to live for. sch sux right now. cant talk to any of de girls. cuz when i do they start rambling on bout their bf n how good he is to her n it hurts me when i hear it. i'm really glad dat they've found someone they can share their life wif, but sometimes they dunno how i feel.

sigh. things really suck at this moment. studies, cca, relationships. so many things to get back in order but so little time.

stoopid kwok now wanna change camp to 13 &14. shit him lah.

~10:35 pm