and the days feel like years

Sunday, August 15, 2004*

argh!!had maths test yesterday. trigo n differentiation. completely forgot bout de trigo part so didnt noe how to do general solution. haha. then implicit differentiation kinda noe how to do, but de ans looked weird. haha. die lah.

went to watch de guys play at yjc aft dat. kinda lost our way there. walked straight instead of turning right. haha. by de time we got there they alr played 2 games. lost to sajc, won cjc. watched them play 2 more games. won de game against nyjc (i think it's dat sch), lost to acjc. quite good.

nat came down to watch marc. saw her. slimmed down a lot. sat wif us durin de nyjc match. didnt talk to her much. dunno wat to say also. we haven talked in such a long time we dunno where to start. haha.

on de train smth happened. some of de girls started asking who i was msging. said classmate n they started teasing me. cuz aiwei n yoke saw me studying wif someone, called A, de other day in canteen n we were laughing bout smth. actually another girl was there but she left to join her other frens. so they got de wrong idea. then on friday stayed back aft touch meeting to study wif A, they asked if i was staying back n where i wld be. i said somewhere arnd sch n they started teasing. told suyi n mebbe val. so on sat a lot of other ppl knew. kinda pissed me off cuz they didnt noe de situation n they assumed dat there was smth going on between us when there was nth. we're juz close cuz there's not a lot of ppl we can talk to now.

yesterday wasnt a day to piss me off. alr quite angry wif my parents cuz of some stuff these few days. de teasing juz made it worse. pissed me off until i nearly cried. juz some tears in my eyes. only aft dat when aiwei asked me y i was so pissed i cldnt help it. tears flowed out. but not so bad. yoke came over n said sorry bout de teasing. told her de situation between A n i briefly. she kinda understood.

haiya my life's getting complicated again.

think i'll give up on him cuz i dun think we pei each other. n it's better if we were juz frens. things haven been going well between de 2 of us. dunno y. sigh.

didnt wanna go home aft rugby yesterday since i was still pissed wif my parents n didnt wanna go lunch wif touch ppl. needed company n so did A. ended up meeting n talked for a long while. talking wif A made me feel a lot better. walked arnd de shopping centre. then went home. A didnt wanna go home so early so walked me home. didnt have to but im grateful for de company. on de way home saw a classmate dat might spread some stuff. suay ah. but even if she does it's not de truth.

gtg now. try to do hw which i was suppose to start a long time ago but was using de com instead. haha. die lah. too slack alr. promos coming up n i still not serious. :(

~3:13 pm