and the days feel like years

Friday, August 06, 2004*

my legs still hurt like MAD!!esp when coming down de stairs. de pain can really kill me loh. damnit lah. fucking painful.

had national day celebrations today. it was a bloody waste of time. parade sucked. marching CMI loh, slow march not in time at all. one guy swing his leg in front before de others. choir sing de national anthem also like wanna die like dat. then went to hall. damn freaking boring. performance not very interesting. only one was when a senior citizen played de harmonica. aft dat was bak to being bored. 3/4 of de time was taken up by de dumb quiz session. super waste time loh. aft quiz, dance performed. they also CMI. not synchronised at all. n de way they dance like no emotions one. like they so sian to dance, like it's all a routine. aft choir sang some national day songs. still CMI. listen to them can die. john koo write another song again. he muz be very free.

sian. while we were 'singing' de national day songs, it hit me dat i really miss chapel services. really miss those times when we wld stand up n sing as a whole sch n praise de lord. n every chapel we had a band. our own students play de instruments. it's very high, esp when it comes to those fast songs. i love dat kind of songs. makes u wanna jump up n sing ur heart out. sigh. wish i cld go back to those days.

had dumb econs lecture aft celebrations. forgot to bring notes. haha. so pretended to listen to lecturer while designing class logo. haha. went town aft dat.

went to eat at far east ljs. half-way thru saw him n her together. didn't expect to see them but wasn't affected. juz waved to her while he stood there n smiled. haha. carried on eating aft dat.

de guys went to watch the village. they asked if may, HL n i wanted to watch. but we told them we were broke. haha. so didn't watch any movie. walked arnd far east to help may find a chain/bracelet for her bf. at de same time bought a new wallet. HL too. different one. but both from 37d. aft dat walked arnd to look for shorts. found a 22 bucks one. but was too small. way too small. haha. cant really say how small it is here. haha. walked arnd somemore. ended up buying another one. slightly bigger. 23 bucks like dat. hope it dun shrink aft washing. if not i cannot wear liao. haha. mebbe shld jian fei. then if shrink still not so bad. haha. kidding. HL wanted to take neoprints. end up we didn't take. haha. cuz she n pf had to rush home. went home wif them cuz i was feeling damn tired alr. so can say this 'shopping trip' quite satisfying. haha. at least i got wat i need. but still wanna buy another shorts. from bum. but now no money liao. save up first. haha. oh yar. i still need a sling bag dat i can carry on de days wif trng so dat i juz throw everything inside n not stuff this bag even tho it can take a lot of stuff. haha. but im broke so it'll hafta wait. de rest of de girls went to heeren to walk arnd somemore aft we left.

hmmz. wateva was in de past has been forgotten. he's not troubling me anymore. now there's another 'he'. but this one's different. think he still haven forgotten his past. he's hurt, but i cant help him cuz we seldom talk face to face. n even if we do, it's bout other things. sigh.

seether feat. amy lee - broken
i wanna hold u high n steal ur pain

~8:47 pm