and the days feel like years

Sunday, August 08, 2004*

suddenly fell into one of those moods again yesterday. juz felt like stoning n not do anything. my legs still hurt like crazy. thank god i dun have much walking to do these few days. haha.

there's been a lot of things running thru my mind these few days. studies, him, everything. wat to do??shld start studying soon. but i juz cant seem to sit down n do work. i study better juz before de exams, but there's so much to study i may not make it in time. i'm busy, he's busy, everyone's busy. sigh.

sometimes i feel like talking to him, but then something in me stops me from doing dat. sometimes i feel dat it wld be better if we were friends only, nothing more.

it's getting complicated again. think he still cant forget de girl he liked during first 3 mths in pj. dunno bout de girl. damnit. y do i keep getting myself into these kinds of things??when will it ever be de situaiton where i like a guy n he likes me back??fuck.

well. got a fucking headache for no reason. hurts. slp also no use. in fact it made it worse. haha. damn. shall go off now. ciaos~

~8:17 pm