and the days feel like years

Friday, March 18, 2005*

wat am i to u?? i seriously wanna know. yea, u said u still want us to be frens aft wat happened but wat is ur definition of a fren?? considering wat has happened between us i think i shld be treated better than the way u're treating me now. or is it because of wat happened that u treat me like im now insignificant to u. u dun like me anymore. that i can understand but is this how u treat someone aft u n that person have spent practically half the year side by side??

last year u complained to me saying u didnt like the guys n u cldnt talk to anyone in class. i told u to come over n join me n hl. but wat did u say?? 'no lah, ppl will talk' then now wat're u doing?? 1 guy with so many girls. going for walks all of a sudden to dunno wat part of the sch. this is only one small thing.

somedays u ignore me totally only when i start to talk to u then u wld say something. n even then u wld ans in such an irritated tone that i get pissed that u're irritated n i rather not talk to u. it's not like u're actually in a bad mood n u're not talking to anyone at all. u're talking to so many other ppl n u look so fucking happy sometimes it makes me wonder whether u actually enjoyed the times that we had together.

i know i really shldnt care abt wat u do but i still care n it still hurts. esp when u do all the small things. there are too many to be said here. call me petty but all i want is to be treated better, like i actually mean something to u even tho there probably wont be a chance for us to be together.

im off, byes~

~11:35 pm