and the days feel like years

Saturday, May 07, 2005*

i feel so weak, so foolish, so dumb, so frustrated. so weak to have given in to u so many times. so foolish to still like u aft all u've done. so dumb to still trust u and ur lies. so frustrated abt this whole situation.

these few days certainly havent been good. seems like when something bad happens everything else goes wrong. a friend passed away on tues aft fighting leukemia for 2 1/2 years. havent talked to her since pri sch when we went to tuition together. didnt expect to cry at the service but i did. but we'll continue cuz she's with God in a much happier place.

rugby's all i have but even now im finding it hard. thank u to all of u who r there for me. i wont be myself for some time n i apologise, before-hand, if i do anything unreasonable during this time.

well done guys. they beat jjc 17-14 last week. so happy. alr qualified for plate finals, 'the first time in 5 years' as zul put it. haha. pretty funny his announcement in the morning. tho they lost to rjc but who cares, we beat jjc. oh, how revenge is sweet. bloody nice try from yewjin. he scored the try that allowed us to win. a great game they played against jjc. rjc's bloody good n the guys did well against them. heads up guys. hopefully they can bring something home for rugby. mebbe then this dumb sch wldnt be so against us ruggers and rogues. good luck, n even if u guys dun win, make sure u al gave ur best n had fun. to us u guys have alr won. n we sure r proud of u all.

off to do homework. bye~

~12:43 am