i'm so so scared that i'll have to say to u that the chance has come and gone and that it's too late. i really really really dont wanna say that. it wld hurt so bad. it wld pain me so much if it came to that.

that's the reason why i dont wanna give up just yet. i wanna hang on until i'm very sure that there's no way u'd go to that place.

i might be wandering onto very dangerous grounds. steep slippery slopes with land mines buried just beneath the surface of soil. one wrong step can send me tumbling down into darkness. darkness being.. (dont know, u fill in the blank)
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end up not going to sch today! haha. happiness!! the other person had some problems with her house and she cldnt make it.
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thank u God, for today. i am grateful.

nights~

~12:17 am