i'm tired of this waiting game. i feel like giving up this wait and carry on not waiting for anyone until the day i meet the final one. it's mentally draining, thinking abt u and this everyday. and it gets worse at night. that's when it gets almost torturous. i wish i cld have one night, just one night is all i'm asking, without the hurricane of thoughts swirling through my mind, creating chaos and disrupting everything else.
but then again, i wanna know how the future wld be.
if i let u go, i wld never know. i dont want to give up and then regret cuz i've finally let u go and now it's ur turn to feel that way. i dont want it to be
too late. that's what i'm most scared of. everything falling in place but the timing is just too late. it wld completely suck if that happened. i dont wanna let it go just yet, cuz there still is that inkling of hope somewhere. it might be small but it's still there. if that glimmer is gone, maybe, just maybe, i'll let u go.
i dont know. really. dont think i've had this feeling before. sigh..
God, i know i dont pray or go to church or believe in u until i need u. but all i want is a little time. just a short meaningful conversation. that's all i'm asking for. please..
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ok, it's confirmed that i'm waiting for my friend to finish her exams then go back to spore together. that means i'll be back on
23nov at
7plus in the morning. 5days aint as bad as 10. dad's gonna book the flight on monday. shld have seats. *fingers crossed*
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have a feeling i'm screwed for the management presentation. but i'm beginning to just forget it and do whatever i can tonight for the meeting tmr. sucks lah, going back to sch on a sunday.
nights~
